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HOME 2003-06-08
Robert Schumann B. 6.8.1810 Zwickau, Germany / D. 7.29.1856 Endenich, Germany Syphilis Late last night, when I got into bed, rain was still falling rain filled the courtyard, rain brushed the windows, rain strummed the fire escape bars as usual, I put on the classical music station rain greeted the trains at the station, turned wheels to waves there was this symphony on that I couldn�t identify all day it had rained and I�d canceled all my plans, some of them gay bad Brahms? stupid Mendelssohn? typical Liszt? instead watched TV day and night, read a book, ate leftovers, cried repeatedly I�m not such an expert, especially about symphonies the wellsprings of my pain obscure, their tapping mechanisms various theme repetition minor theme variation near-climax something superficially startling my surface worn thin by rain and reprise, this I could hear odd derrick-like structures nodding over my day, sucking out tears over the rolling breaker-like trains and the sounds of an unsteady downpour over the prom scene in Stephen King�s Carrie! a piece that makes you say classical music, what is the point? you just know lying there, I pictured the pages filling with marks you have to wait these things out an unhappy mind grinding away, even managing to convince itself (but only at moments evanescent as silence on a rainy night) that its existence was a deeply, even ultimately joyous one; and at last the announcement: Robert Schumann�s Spring Symphony. Consolation Site: And that which does not make us stronger
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